Baumgartner and I

Where I'm Going

I want to show you where I've been,
But I want to take you where I'm going.

Peace,
Justin

Where I Found What I Was Looking For

I had wandered all around my mind,
In hopes of finding happiness;
But when I finally found it,
It wasn't where I had been looking.
I didn't find happiness in my mind,
And I didn't find it in the places I had known.
I found it somewhere I'd never looked before,
I found happiness in you.

Peace,
Justin

The Apple and the Boy

Look at you, so beautiful,
Like an apple in a tree,
Waiting to be picked or plucked,
Or eaten by a bee.

You'll hang there until noticed,
Or you tumble from your tree,
Where you could be found by a boy,
Or trampled beneath his feet.

Maybe he'll find you in the tree,
Or lying on the ground,
But no matter where he finds you,
Know you cannot make a sound.

So if he doesn't see you,
And you remain unfound,
There's little you can do about it,
There's no way to get around.

He simply has to find you,
Or you'll lie there 'til you rot,
Maybe you're not his apple,
Maybe you're not in his lot.

Peace,
Justin

My Dark and Silent Room

[Verse 1]
I came down from my dark and silent room,
In hopes that I'd be leaving it for good,
But now I know I never should have left,
And I wonder how I ever thought I could.

[Chorus 1]
Our time has passed, and you have gone away.
The darkness has returned, and it looks as though it's here to stay.

[Verse 2]
So I retreat back up the twisting stairs,
To my dark and silent room,
Where I'll stay and hope and wonder,
As the room becomes my tomb.

[Chorus 2]
Our time has passed, and you have moved along.
The darkness has returned, and I know that I was wrong.

[End]
I'll dream about the sunlight and the joy that I have known.
And I'll dream that we're together as I lie there all alone.

[Fade Out]
And I'll dream that we're together as I lie there all alone...

Peace,
Justin

New Happiness

Don't do this to me,
I'm happier than I've been in awhile.
I don't know what to do about you anymore.
Don't try to keep me where I was,
If you're going to move on,
Because that's not fair.
I love you still,
But things have changed,
And I must move on,
And find myself a better place to go.
Find myself a place where I can be happier;
Because if I stay,
I won't be happy,
I won't have anything.
Is that what you want?
I hope it isn't.
Don't do this to me.
Don’t send me back,
Now that I'm moving forward.
Don't push me back to where I was,
To where you were,
Because you're not there anymore.
I won't find happiness there without you,
And I can't follow you to where you're going.
You must let me go my own way now.
Don't make me follow you,
Because I'll never catch up;
I left this place far too late for that.
Don't do this to me.
I must go my own way,
And find my new happiness on a different path.

If you let me go this way,
And you continue on your new path;
When what has begun has come to an end,
Perhaps we’ll find that our paths lead to the same place.
Or maybe that’s just what I’m hoping.
Maybe the way I’ve chosen now is meaningless;
Maybe I’m only taking it to get away,
Because I think the that the sooner I leave,
The sooner it is that we will both return.

I’m tired of following you.
Let me go my own way for a while.
Where I am right now is a good place,
A place I want to be right now,
A place far from any place I’ve ever been before.
Let me be there for awhile,
And be happy for me,
Be happy for me as I am happy for you.
I’m glad that you are where you are right now;
Please be glad for me that I’m where I am right now.

Peace,
Justin

Your Pit of Distress

I feel as if things were just getting better,
I was healing, and things were going so well,
I was even finding happiness in new places,
But then your world came tumbling down,
And I can't hold it up for you.
I feel so horrible,
Because I want to help you,
But I don't know how.
Everything has happened so quickly,
And all I can say is that I’m glad I escaped my pit before I fell into yours.

Peace,
Justin